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Wednesday, June 08, 2005
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-[it wasn't just today, u thought of it many years, and only today, you felt it was right]- where was i yesteday and where am i today.it just does not make any sense to me.i have always wanted to feel what a prisoner feels.not because i am a crazy fool but maybe because it's while being a prisoner that u really get to know yourself.but sometimes do u really want to know what makes your soul. *mummy said it was not right but how can something so good, be so wrong* i feel like burning myself.feel like destorying what was never mine.feel like hurting myself.feel like running to a place which is only mind that no one not even my thoughts would disturb.i honestly can say i don't know what i'm feeling and even better i'm glad i don't know -[and as i ate i realize, of god"what the fuck"
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 every punch i throw i made a wish a selfish wish hoping u'd be mine instead of fallen leaves  i wish i could i look at u without turning my head thinking what happen to this beautiful girl i once knew *for you i bleed myself dry* simran+goku 14 cuteangelinhell@hotmail.com 15121991 sjc,2c05,1b,04 http://tears-of-pain.blogspot.com *my lurffs* manchester.u, squash, music, harry potter, .I AM EVERYTHING UR NOT .N UR EVERYTHING I'M NOT. |
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does it not hurt u when u leave someone. does it not hurt you when someone leaves u.. does it not hurt u when someone just walks out blaming the world at u.. does it not hurt when someone bitches bout u at ya back. . does it not hurt seeing ya bestfriend hurt.. does it not hurt hearing lies about ya. . does it no hurt telling lies.. does it not hurt if some one plans to forget u exist. . does it not hurt when ya abandon. . does it not hurt when u cry. . does it not hurt when u bleed.. does it not hurt when the one person u need then just does not wan to see ya face. . does it not hurt being alone.. does it not hurt being looked down.. does it not hurt with labels like"bitch,liar,cheater,back-stabber,faker". . does it not hurt when everything starts to fall.. does it not hurt when one momment the whole world loves u n the next the whole world loves her.. does it not hurt when things don go as plan. . does it not hurt when ya hearts in two. . does it not hurt to see yaself in the mirror only to realize"that is not me".. does it not hurt to realize how selfish,unkind,cruel,cold a person u are. . does it not hurt that u try so hard but u never succed. . does it not hurt to see a love one go. . does it not hurt to realize you have been a mistake.. does it not hurt when u realize u don know who u are. . does it not hurt when ya treated like a toy. . does it not hurt when u realize others use u. . does it not hurt when u hear the closest thing to u speak such words. . does it not hurt to hear u have cancer or smth worse. . does it not hurt to realize the one person u care 4 . does not even noe that ur worth more then a ruby or even 10 bucks. . does it not hurt to hear everything,the truth and the lies.. does it not hurt that it has to be over.. does it not hurt to realizeshe/he's not yours. . does it not hurt that ur the only mistake that ever took place. . does it not hurt to be her. . does it not hurt never being able to tell others . how u feel maybe because the only friend u have is one.. does it not hurt to realize it's all just a game,. just a play that has a sad ending with tears rolling . .huh tell me does it not hurt to . realize that atleast one of the above has happen to u. . |
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